It was the four year anniversary of her heart-lung transplant, March 9, 1992. Claire was thinking of the past and of the future, something she had done each year since her transplant gave her a new, extended life. She had moved back to Hull, Massachusetts, as this scene at the left suggests with its ocean view. Those four years had brought her contact with her donor’s family, dreams about that donor that created as strong spiritual bond, and many small changes in her life style and likes for foods and activities.
On this date Claire had a dream, just as she had experienced on each of the other three anniversary dates. In this dream she was revving up twenty-two motorcycles that she planned to drive around town. ‘Twenty two’ seemed to link to her donor, Tim, who would now be twenty two years old had he lived. In this dream she sensed that she was to ride and enjoy Tim’s passion for fast racing. Motorcycle riding was something that she didn’t care for in her waking life. As the dream progressed she became less and less thrilled with motorcycle riding. She later realized that the dream ritualized letting go of the bond with Tim and of sorting out her very own personality. Shortly after this dream Claire was welcoming a new man into her life. As she notes in her book, “It was as if Tim had stepped aside, leaving room in my heart for somebody else.”
Let us look at her t/Moon-opposite-n/Sun Return for March 1, 1992.
t/Moon opposes n/Sun in the 5th house, indicating a theme involving creativity, being with friends, balancing the needs of self and others. A generic theme or statement would not fit for this unique situation (the dream), but it would fit the overall activities for the two week period. That period included finding a new man to play a loving role in her life, replacing her fixation with her donor.
t/Mercury near the Ascendant suggests talking, communicating, listening. This position opposes n/Neptune, the symbol for dreams, illusion, feeling blissful. And, we need to note n/Venus near the IC angle, at 29 Gemini. Natal Venus at the IC is a well known pattern indicating either death or falling in love. That is not contradictory, both situation indicate a Venus-quality of achieving harmony and balance in one’s life. And, we should note n/MC at the Return chart’s MC; this indicates a reaffirmation of one’s life-goals and establishing a public image and reputation. Let us now look at an ‘Advance’ of this chart to the anniversary date and the dream where she let Tim leave.
t/Mercury remains at the Ascendent degree. The MC angle has moved forward to make contact with t/N.Node; an association is made that impacts one’s life’s goals. Note that the n/N.Node is in the 7th house of relationships, indicating that Claire’s life goals will rely upon a new association, and that the n/N.Node-7th shows her openness to relating to others. Claire had no inclination to finding someone to share her life following her transplant. Now, the time appears to have come.
We can note that t/Neptune (dreams, fairy tales) squares the n/N.Node in the 7th. Also, the n/Neptune in the 6th is opposed by t/Sun in the 12th. Private needs are met with dream-come-true. The transiting Part of Fortune does not need to be angular (in the 1st, 4th, 7th or 10th houses) in order to be effective because it represents an alternate outlet of expression for the first house. Here, t/PoF is in contact with n/Moon; a change affecting her emotions and feelings. We can blend all of these statements together, easily finding a context within her life. Yes, these events are not earth-shaking, only significant on a personal level. Claire finds a release from her frequent contact with the spiritual essence of Tim, and in place of that place in her heart she finds a new man to play a role in her life. Dave